It's time for that email that I haven't really wanted to write, honestly. So I will be returning home this week. It has been an amazing 18 months. They probably have been the hardest 18 months of my life but I have learned so much about the Savior. I have seen him come alive in the lives of so many people. I'm so grateful to witness the miracle again and again. I'm grateful for the amazing people that I've been able to meet and be a part of their lives. Thankful for their examples of coming closer to Christ seeing how I can apply that in my own life. I am so grateful. At times I wonder how I got so lucky to be here and have such spiritually intimate experiences with amazing people. Then I remember, "if ye have desires to serve God, ye are called to the work". I have. And He did. In many different ways but all for the purpose of bringing others to Christ, including myself. He saved me. My trainer and I joked a few times of me being like Peter. And I thought I was fine but just as Peter. My faith faltered. I doubted at times. And the Savior again and again reached out, reminded me of plain and simple truths and invited me to act. As I did, my testimony grew and my love for My Savior grew. Has grown and will continue to grow. He pulled me out and has helped me. Strengthened me. I love Him. I know He is my Redeemer, and I trust Him so very much. I know this isn't the end. I know that as surely as the Lord liveth, I will be prepared for what comes next. I know this is the restored gospel of Jesus Christ and that through it, precious saving ordinances can be performed so we can be united eternally as families and with our Father in Heaven.